Tijan is a new-to-me author. I had never heard of her or read the synopsis of any of her books. I’m not sure which book site or list I first saw Ryan’s Bed. The cover was beautiful and somewhere in its brief description was “romance and mature themes” and knew I had to read it. I imagined it would be sad at the beginning since we know Mackenzie’s sister commits suicide. I thought the story would be mostly teenage angst, lust, and dealing with some emotions. I was very, very wrong! It was one of the best mistakes I’ve ever made!
Really, I don’t do sad and depressing reads! I’ve never picked up John Green or read/watched Thirteen Reasons Why. I find life is challenging enough and I work with pre-teens/teens. I am an escapist reader. As I’ve said it before throw all the HEA my way. Sometimes I don’t want to think, I just want true love, fated mates, and baby making! I’m looking at you Alexa Riley…you ladies have ruined me!
I digress. I thought Ryan’s Bed would be a lighter read that focused on first love after a tragedy and becoming happy again! I figured it would gloss over the dark and real emotions that would come after such a tragedy!
I have never been so happy to be WRONG!
Tijan gave me a story full of raw emotions that moved me in ways that I don’t remember a book doing before. Then again, this was the first book I can think of that I’ve read that dealt heavily with suicide, depression, grief, and those left behind. She handled it beautifully, respectfully, and realistically.
I think some of the strong emotions I had with this book came from the fact that I went in not knowing what to expect. I’m going to leave details brief because I want you to enjoy this book as much as I did. The way Tijan dealt with each member of the family Willow left behind; Mackenzie her twin sister, her parents, and eleven-year-old genius brother Robbie. Each was so different in how they coped or did not cope. They made me gasp and cry at points. It truly became every man for himself to survive each day without Willow. That family dynamic led way to the believability of how Mackenzie was able to live and act the way she did.
She found comfort in sleeping in her neighbor’s bed. Ryan became her lifeline and tether back to the living world. As we learn he really understood what she was going through. Ryan is mature beyond his years. He has his flaws but his feelings and actions towards Mackenzie are swoon-worthy. He is the only solid rock in her life. I loved how their relationship developed, and all of the ugly truths that were told. I will stop there because I don’t want to give too many details.
Overall this story was amazing!! It made me feel every emotion. It was full of love, hate, romance, sadness, betrayal, family, and friends. Yes, it was sexy and steamy at times, but also awkward! Just as it should be.
This book will forever be a part of me and I highly recommend it to anyone who in any way deals with teens!
PS. The ENDING will give you all sorts of new feelings and having you rereading! Don’t worry it is complete and satisfying!
Check out the Goodreads link: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/36615592-ryan-s-bed
It’s also available on Kindle Unlimited.
You will probably read the synopsis and wonder how this crazy lady thought it was going to be anything but what it was. Then again take a read at some of the quotes below. I hope you enjoy, but be ready for all the feels and emotions.